Lost Photography

I miss photography. I miss it.
I've been inspired lately to create some new work, but they all involve other people. I have considered using myself in the photos, but I have never been satisfied with self-portraits.

I'm not sure what I'll do. I haven't created anything I've been really proud of in a while.
When did I get worse at photography?
I blame digital for part of it.
With digital it's often a "keep shooting till you hit something" method. But with film you had a finite amount of tries.
Make those tries count. Figure out what you want before you press the shutter release.

I need more things to be set up.
I'm having trouble finding time to set up photo shoots.
Life is busy for me.
Cleaning. Preparing to move. Packing.

I look around and think of what I can get rid of.
What do I not need?
What things are important to me?
Bicycles.
Photography.
A vehicle, when available.

How many pairs of shoes do I need?
How many shirts to do I need?

How can I focus more on my photography?

I'd like more people I could go to to use in photographs.
I don't feel like I have any such people right now.

I'll keep looking.

Maybe it will be easier when I get to Korea.
When I'm there, if I keep a camera always with me and are always taking photographs then those that I'm around may become accustomed to me with a camera and not notice it as often.

This was why I like my waist level twin-lens camera. I'm not covering my face as often. It's not as obtrusive.
But a waist level medium format camera is not in my budget right now.
Mostly because it cost's a full years pay.

I'll keep looking.

Doubt I could live in NYC

Now, on my third trip to NYC I'm finally able to experience what it is like to live in this city, and I'm not sure it's something that I would want to do.
NYC is certainly one of the dirtiest major first world cities that I've visited.
Part of this cities dirtiness I'll attribute to construction and the cleaning methods of the city, and part I'll attribute to how people who live here care for their city.

This city also seems to be very difficult to find things I'm looking for. Khaki pants that I like, used bicycles that I like, and alterations shops.

I currently live in Germany, and was excited to be back in America where nearly everyone would speak English. Hmm… well, I was certainly wrong about that. One because I chose to stay in a very hispanic neighborhood, and also because NYC is a very popular city for people from all over the would to visit.

Maybe it is just large cities that aren't right for me.
Businesses are doing everything they can here to earn a reasonable profit, seemingly to mean that they pack as much as they can into their stores. Laundromats end up in such small spaces and so many machines that they are unable to fit in many chairs or counters to fold laundry.

Many of the people here, who still decide to drive in the city, still drive very large cars. Why? Why do they think it is a good idea to buy a large car for a city with few parking spaces and very very crowded streets.

It is pretty fun thought, to have a 10 mile commute that can take an hour.
Oh, wait, no, it isn't.

NYC is not a city for shy people, and I'm a shy person.

Dear girl on the subway

If you choose to wear stockings with large holes in them, please, please shave your legs beforehand.

Thanks